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  prussicacidwasusedasaponentincertaincheicalindustries;includingtheanufactureofdyes。afewilligraswereenoughtokillaperson;onelitreinareservoircouldwipeoutaediu…sizedcity。

  obviouslysuchalethalsubstancewaskeptunderstrictcontrol。butitcouldbeproducedinalostunliitedquantitiesinanordinarykitchen。allthatwasneededwasaodestaountoflaboratoryequipent;andthatcouldbefoundinacheistrysetforchildrenforafewhundredkronor;alongwithseveralingredientsthatcouldbeextractedfroordinaryhouseholdproducts。theanualfortheprocesswasontheinter。

  anotheroptionwasnicotine。froacartonofcigarettesshecouldextractenoughilligrasofthesubstanceandheatittoakeaviscoussyrup。anevenbettersubstance;althoughslightlyoreple. comroduce;wasnicotinesulphate;whichhadthepropertythatitcouldbeabsorbedthroughtheskin。allshewouldhavetodowasputonrubbergloves;fillawaterpistol;andspraybjuranintheface。withintwentysecondsheshouldbeunconscious;andwithinafewinuteshewouldbedeadasadoor…nail。

  salanderhadhadnoideathatsoanyhouseholdproductscouldbetransforedintodeadlyweapons。afterstudyingthesubjectforseveraldays;shewaspersuadedthattherewerenotechnicalipedientstoakingshortworkofherguardian。

  thereweretwoprobles:bjuran’sdeathwouldnotofitselfgiveherbackcontrolofherownlife;andtherewasnoguaranteethatbjuran’ssuessorwouldbeaniproveent。analysisoftheconsequences。

  whatsheneededwasawaytocontrolherguardianandthusherownsituation。shesatonthewornsofainherlivingrooforonewholeeveningrunningthroughthesituationinherind。bytheendofthenight;shehadscrappedtheideaofurderbypoisonandputtogetheranewplan。

  itwasnotanappealingoption;anditrequiredhertoallowbjurantoattackheragain。butifshecarrieditoff;shewouldhavewon。

  atleast;soshethought。

  bytheendoffebruaryblokvistfellintoadailyroutihattransforedhisstayinhedeby。hegotupat9:00everyorning;atebreakfast;andworkeduntilnoon。duringthistiehewouldcranewaterialintohishead。thenhewouldtakeanhour…longwalk;noatterwhattheweatherwaslike。intheafternoonhewouldgoonworking;eitherathoeoratsusanne’sbridgecafé;processingwhathehadreadintheorningorwritingsectionsofwhatwouldbevanger’sauto…biography。between3:00and6:00hewasalwaysfree。hewouldshopforgroceries;dohislaundry;gointohedestad。around7:00hewouldgoovertoseevangertoaskhiquestionsthathadarisenduringtheday。by10:00hewashoe;andhewouldreaduntil1:00or2:00intheorning。hewasworkingsysteaticallythroughvanger’sdocuents。

  theworkofshapingtheautobiographywasovingsoothly。hehadwritten120pagesofthefailychronicleinroughdraft。hehadreachedthe1920s。beyondthispointhewouldhavetooveoreslowlyandstartweighinghiswords。

  throughthelibraryinhedestadhehadorderedsdealingwithnazisduringthattie;includinghelenel??w’sdoctoraldissertation;theswastikaandthewasasheaf;whichdealtwiththesybolsadoptedbythegeranandswedishnazis。hehaddraftedanotherfortypagesaboutvangerandhisbrothers;focusingonvangerasthepersonholdingthestorytogether。hehadalistofsubjectsheneededtoresearchonthewaythepanyoperatedduringthattie。andhehaddiscoveredthatthevangerfailywasalsoheavilyinvolvedinivarkreuger’sepire—anothersidestoryhehadtoexplore。heestiatedthathehadabout300pageslefttowrite。aordingtotheschedulehehaddevised;hewantedtohaveafinaldraftforhenrikvangertolookatbythefirstofsepteber;sothathecouldspendtheautunrevisingthetext。

  forallhisreadingandlistening;blokvisthadadenotaninchofprogressintheharrietvangercase。noatterhowuchhebroodedoverthedetailsinthefiles;hecouldfindnotasinglepieceofrationthatcontradictedtheinvestigativereport。

  onesaturdayeveninginlatefebruaryhehadaconversationwithvangerinwhichhereportedonhislackofprogress。theoldanlistenedpatientlyasblokvistlistedallthedeadendshehadruninto。

  “nocrieisperfect;”vangersaid。“i’sureweusthaveissedsoething。”

  “westillcan’tsaywhetheracriewasitted。”

  “keepatit;”vangersaid。“finishthejob。”

  “it’spointless。”

  “maybeso。butdon’tgiveup。”

  blokvistsighed。

  “thetelephonenubers;”hesaidatlast。

  “yes。”

  “theyhavetoeansoething。”

  “iagree。”

  “theywerewrittendownforsoepurpose。”

  “yes。”

  “butwecan’tinterpretthe。”

  “no。”

  “orelsewe’reinterpretingthewrong。”

  “precisely。”

  “they’renottelephonenubers。theyeansoething。”

  “maybeso。”

  mikaelsighedagainandwenthoetocontinuereading。

  advokatbjuranwasrelievedwhensalandercalledagainandexplainedthatsheneededoreoney。shehadpostponedtheirostrecentscheduledeetingwiththeexcusethatshehadtowork;andavaguesenseofuneasinessgnawedathi。wasshegoingtoturnintoanunanageableproblechild?butsinceshehadissedtheeeting;shehadnoallowance;andsoonerorlatershewouldbeboundtoeandseehi。hecouldnothelpbutbeconcernedthatsheighthavediscussedwhathadhappenedwithsoeoutsider。

  shewasgoingtohavetobekeptincheck。shehadtounderstandwhowasincharge。sohetoldherthatthistietheeetingwouldbeathishoenearodenplan;notattheoffice。uponhearingthisnews;salanderwassilentforalongtieontheotherendofthetelephonebeforeshefinallyagreed。

  shehadplannedtoeethiathisoffice;exactlylikelasttie。nowshewasforcedtoseehiinunfailiarterritory。theeetingwassetforfridayevening。shehadbeengiventhebuildingcode;andsheranghisdoorbellat8:30;halfanhourlaterthanagreed。thatwashowuchtieshehadneededinthedarknessofthebuilding’sstairwelltorunthroughherplanonelasttie;consideralternatives;steelherself;andobilisethecourageshewouldneed。

  at8:00blokvistswitchedoffhisputerandputonhisoutdoorclothing。heleftthelightsoninhisoffice。outsidetheskywasbrightwithstarsandthenightwasfreezing。hewalkedbrisklyupthehill;pastvanger’shouse;takingtheroadto?sterg?rden。beyondvanger’shouseheturnedofftotheleft;followinganuglierpathalongtheshore。thelightedbuoysflickeredoutonthewater;andthelightsfrohedestadgleaedprettilyinthedark。heneededfreshair;butaboveallhewantedtoavoidthespyingeyesofisabellavanger。notfarfromartinvanger’shouseherejoinedtheroadandarrivedatceciliavanger’sdoorjustafter8:30。theywentstraighttoherbedroo。

  theyetonceortwiceaweek。ceciliahadnotonlybeehisloverouthereinhisplaceofexile;shehadalsobeethepersonhehadbeguntoconfidein。itwassignificantlyorerewardingdiscussingharrietvangerwithherthanwithheruncle。

  theplanbegantogowrongalostfrothestart。

  bjuranwaswearingabathrobewhenheopenedthedoortohisapartent。hewascrossatherarrivinglateandotionedherbrusquelyinside。shewaswearingblackjeans;ablackt…shirt;andtheobligatoryleatherjacket。sheworeblackbootsandasallrucksackwithastrapacrossherchest。

  “haven’tyouevenlearnedtotellthetie?”bjuransaid。salanderdidnotreply。shelookedaround。theapartentlookeduchasshehadexpectedafterstudyingthebuildingplansinthearchivesofthecityzoningoffice。thelight…colouredfurniturewasbirchandbeech…wood。

  “eon;”bjuransaidinafriendliertone。heputhisararoundhershouldersandledherdownahallintotheapartent’sinterior。nosalltalk。heopenedthedoortothebedroo。therewasnodoubtastowhatservicessalanderwasexpecte. comerfor。

  shetookaquicklookaround。bachelorfurnishings。adoublebedwithahighbedsteadofstainlesssteel。alowchestofdrawersthatalsofunctionedasabedsidetable。bedsidelapswithutedlighting。awardrobewithairroralongoneside。acanechairandasalldeskinthecornernexttothedoor。hetookherbythehandandledhertothebed。

  “tellewhatyouneedoneyforthistie。moreputeraessories?”

  “food;”shesaid。

  “ofcourse。howstupidofe。youissedourlasteeting。”heplacedhishandunderherchinandliftedherfacesotheireyeset。“howareyou?”

  sheshrugged。

  “haveyouthoughtaboutwhatisaidlasttie?”

  “aboutwhat?”

  “lisbeth;don’tactanyorestupidthanyouare。iwantustobegoodfriendsandtohelpeachotherout。”

  shesaidnothing。advokatbjuranresistedanipulsetogiveheraslap. comutsoelifeintoher。

  “didyoulikeourgrown…upgaefrolasttie?”

  “no。”

  heraisedhiseyebrows。

  “lisbeth;don’tbefoolish。”

  “ineedoneytobuyfood。”

  “butthat’swhatwetalkedaboutlasttie。ifyou’renicetoe;i’llbenicetoyou。butifyou’rejustgoingtocausetrouble…”hisgriponherchintightenedandshetwistedaway。

  “iwantyoney。whatdoyouwantetodo?”

  “youknohatiwant。”hegrabbedhershoulderandpulledhertowardsthebed。

  “wait;”salandersaidhastily。shegavehiaresignedlookandthennoddedcurtly。shetookoffherrucksackandleatherjacketwiththerivetsandlookedaround。sheputherjacketonthechair;setherrucksackontheroundtable;andtookseveralhesitantstepstothebed。thenshe. comped;asifshehadcoldfeet。bjurancaecloser。

  “wait;”shesaidonceore;inatoneasiftosaythatshewastryingtotalksenseintohi。“idon’twanttohavetosuckyourdickeverytieineedoney。”

  theexpressiononbjuran’sfacesuddenlychanged。heslappedherhard。salanderopenedhereyeswide;butbeforeshecouldreact;hegrabbedherbytheshoulderandthrewherontothebed。theviolencecaughtherbysurprise。whenshetriedtoturnover;hepressedherdownonthebedandstraddledher。

  likethetiebefore;shewasnoatchforhiintersofphysicalstrength。heronlychanceoffightingbackwasifshecouldhurthibyscratchinghiseyesorusingsoesortofweapon。butherplannedscenariohadalreadygoohell。shit;shethoughtwhenherippedoffhert…shirt。sherealisedwithterrifyingclaritythatshewasoutofherdepth。

  sheheardhiopenthedresserdrawernexttothebedandcaughttheclankingsoundofetal。atfirstshedidnotunderstandwhatwashappening;thenshesawthehandcuffsclosearoundherwrist。hepulledupherar;placedthehandcuffsaroundoneofthebedposts;andlockedherotherhand。itdidnottakehilon. comulloffherbootsandjeans。thenhetookoffherknickersandheldtheinhishand。

  “youhavetolearntotruste;lisbeth;”hesaid。“i’goingtoteachyouhowthisgrown…upgaeisplayed。ifyoudon’ttreatewell;youhavetobepunished。whenyou’renicetoe;we’llbefriends。”

  hesatastrideheragain。

  “soyoudon’tlikeanalsex;”hesaid。

  salanderopenedherouthtoscrea。hegrabbedherhairandstuffedtheknickersinherouth。shefelthiputtingsoethingaroundherankles;spreadherlegsapartandtiethesothatshewaslyingtherepletelyvulnerable。sheheardhiovingaroundtheroobutshecouldnotseethroughthet…shirtaroundherface。ittookhiseveralinutes。shecouldhardlybreathe。thenshefeltanexcruciatingpainasheforcedsoethingupheranus。

  ceciliavangerstillhadarulethatblokvistwasnottostayallnight。soetieafter2:00intheorninghebegantodresswhileshelaynakedonthebed;silingathi。

  “ilikeyou;mikael。ilikeyourpany。”

  “ilikeyoutoo。”

  shepulledhibacktothebedandtookofftheshirthehadjustputon。hestayedforoneorehour。

  whenlaterhepassedbyvanger’shouse;hewassurehesawoneofthecurtainsshiftupstairs。

  salanderwasallowe. comutonherclothes。itwas4:00onsaturdayorning。shepickedupherleatherjacketandrucksackandhobbledtothefrontdoor;wherehewaswaitingforher;showeredandneatlydressed。hegaveherachequefor2;500kronor。

  “i’lldriveyouhoe;”hesaid;andopenedthedoor。

  shecrossedthethreshold;outoftheapartent;andturnedtofacehi。herbodylookedfragileandherfacewasswollenfrocrying;andhealostrecoiledwhenheethereyes。neverinhislifehadheseensuchnaked;soulderinghatred。salanderlookedjustasderangedashercaseindicated。

  “no;”shesaid;soquietlythathebarelyheardtheword。“icangethoeonyown。”

  heputahandonhershoulder。

  “areyousure?”

  shenodded。hisgriponhershouldertightened。

  “reeberwhatweagreed。you’llebackherenextsaturday。”

  shenoddedagain。cowed。helethergo。

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  saturday;march8–monday;march17

  salanderspenttheweekinbedwithpaininherabdoen;bleedingfroherrectu;andlessvisiblewoundsthatwouldtakelongertoheal。whatshehadgohroughwasverydifferentfrothefirstrapeinhisoffice;itwasnolongeraatterofcoercionanddegradation。thiswassysteaticbrutality。

  sherealiseduchtoolatethatshehadutterlyisjudgedbjuran。

  shehadassuedhewasonapowertripandlikedtodoinate;notthathewasanall…outsadist。hehadkeptherinhandcuffshalfthenight。severaltiesshebelievedheeanttokillher;andatonepointhehadpressedapillowoverherfaceuntilshethoughtshewasgoin. comassout。

  shedidnotcry。

  apartfrothetearsofpurephysicalpainsheshednotasingletear。whenshelefttheapartentsheadeherwaywithdifficultytothetaxistandatodenplan。withdifficultysheclibedthestairstoherownapartent。sheshoweredandwipedthebloodfrohergenitals。thenshedrankapintofwaterwithtworohypnolandstubledtoherbedandpulledtheduvetoverherhead。

  shewokeupatiddayonsunday;eptyofthoughtsandwithconstantpaininherhead;usclesandabdoen。shegotup;dranktwoglassesofkefir;andateanapple。thenshetooktwooresleepingpillsandwentbacktobed。

  shedidnotfeellikegettingupuntiltuesday。shewentoutandboughtabigboxofbilly’spanpizza;stucktwooftheintheicrowave;andfilledatheroswithcoffee。shespentthatnightontheinter;readingarticlesandthesesonthepsychopathologyofsadis。

  shefoundonearticlepublishedbyawoen’sgroupintheunitedstatesinwhichtheauthorclaiedthatthesadistchosehis“relationships”withalostintuitiveprecision;thesadist’sbestvictiwastheonewhovoluntarilywenttohibecauseshedidnotthinkshehadanychoice。thesadistspecialisedinpeoplewhowereinapositionofdependence。

  advokatbjuranhadchosenherasavicti。

  thattoldhersoethingaboutthewayshewasviewedbyotherpeople。

  onfriday;aweekafterthesecondrape;shewalkedfroherapartenttoatattooparlourinthehornstulldistrict。shehadadeanappointent;andtherewerenoothercustoersintheshop。theownernodded;recognisingher。

  shechoseasiplelittletattoodepictinganarrowbandandaskedtohaveitputonherankle。shepointed。

  “theskinisverythinthere。it’sgoingtohurtalot;”saidthetattooartist。

  “that’sok;”salandersaid;takingoffherjeansandputtingherlegup。

  “ok;aband。youalreadyhaveloadsoftattoos。areyousureyouwantanotherone?”

  “it’sareinder。”

  blokvistleftthecaféwhensusanneclosedat2:00onsaturdayafternoon。hehadspenttheorningtypinguphisnotesinhisi。hewalkedtokonsuandboughtsoefoodandcigarettesbeforehewenthoe。hehaddiscoveredfriedsausagewithpotatoesandbeets—adishhehadneverbeenfondofbutforsoereasonitseeedperfectlysuitedtoacabininthecountry。

  ataround7:00intheeveninghestoodbythekitchenwindow;thinking。ceciliavangerhadnotcalled。hehadrunintoherthatafternoonwhenshewasbuyingbreadatthecafé;butshehadbeenlostinherownthoughts。itdidnotseelikelythatshewouldcallthisevening。heglancedatthelittletvthathealostneverused。insteadhesatatthekitchenbenchandopenedaysterybysuegrafton。

  salanderreturnedattheagreed…upontietobjuran’sapartentnearodenplan。heletherinwithapolite;welingsile。

  “andhowareyoudoingtoday;dearlisbeth?”

  shedidnotreply。heputanararoundhershoulder。

  “isupposeitwasabitroughlasttie;”hesaid。“youlookedalittlesubdued。”

  shegavehiacrookedsileandhefeltasuddenpangofuncertainty。thisgirlisnotallthere。ihavetoreeberthat。hewonderedifshewouldearound。

  “shallwegointothebedroo?”salandersaid。

  ontheotherhand;sheaybewithit…。todayi’lltakeiteasyonher。builduphertrust。hehadalreadyputoutthehandcuffsonthechestofdrawers。itwasnotuntiltheyreachedthebedthatbjuranrealisedthatsoethingwasaiss。

  shewastheoneleadinghitothebed;nottheotherwayaround。he. compedandgaveherapuzzledlookwhenshepulledsoethingoutofherjacketpocketwhichhethoughtwasaobiletelephone。thenhesawhereyes。

  “saygoodnight;”shesaid。

  sheshovedthetaserintohisleftarpitandfiredoff75;000volts。whenhislegsbegantogivewaysheputhershoulderagainsthiandusedallherstrengt. comushhidownontothebed。

  ceciliavangerfeltalittletipsy。shehaddecidednottotelephoneblokvist。theirrelationshiphaddevelopedintoaridiculousbedroofarce;inwhichblokvisthadtotiptoearoundtryingtogettoherhouseunn